Love of my life

Can you hear me?

Love of my life.... Can you feel me?

As I lay in the darkness of a life anyone would want.

The perfect view,

the perfect house, 

the perfect man, 

The perfect life. They'd say.

But nothing feels perfect about it

because you were supposed to be part of it.

And this imperfect perfection feels incomplete without you.

Love of my life you've broken my heart

and you also helped me discover the best of life.

My happiest moments,

the most tender, the kindest,

the most pure were with you.

And it hurts.

It hurts to open my eyes and see a face that isn't yours.

It's hurts to get a hug that doesn't take me in between your arms.

It hurts to try and find you in someone else's eyes. 

It hurts to be so close and yet, so far.

And it hurts the most to feel this way, all of a sudden... after so long.

After stopping all the feelings, 

Erasing all the memories, 

removing all the tenderness

and avoiding all the emptiness.

After my biggest efforts and fooling myself into believing you were far gone. This happens.

I lay in the dark in my perfect bed, with the perfect view, alone.

Missing you deep within my soul

while my heart screams in silence

tears roll down my face and my chest aches.

I almost died yesterday and I guess, it made all these deeply hid emotions surface because... the one I wanted next to me, was you.

.

Love of my life, can we stop pretending?

Or is it that maybe I just love the memory of us and miss something that no longer exists.... Do I?

Love of my life, have you been fooling yourself too?

Love of my life please, tell me the truth 

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