Lost

Whatever it has to be, It will be.

Doesn't matter what you do, what you think, or what are you working out.
Because sometimes, when u think things are going all right. They are NOT.

And that happens because You BELIEVE,
                   "Never lost hope"

Yeah i have had said that thousands of times, to most of people i know, even to myself.
But sometimes "Believe in", or better said: Trust it is not all.

It's not with words but with actions when someone can be assure of what its gonna be.

Facts, events, things done.

Even it's kind of hot out there and you can see the sunshine. Kids playing smiling and enjoying their little life into that bubble. Even some leaves are falling from the trees, even some flowers are trying to grow up and survive.

It's cold inside, because maybe there are no more feelings, maybe it is not the right time now.
Pain?...fuck yes. A lot of, deep inside. The pills cannot make her forget, maybe that's her problem.
Cigarettes are not enough , and the trust maybe doesn't exist anymore. At least, not this time.
Empty. That's the right word. A lot of thoughs an  ideas but nothing seems to bring back the solution.

How could she trust again?. How?. In the mean time (apparently) there isn't an answer.

words, and words and more words...and sO on....

Just words. blabla

I may have some mistakes (of course)
But..when does everything starts?. What was the beginning?

I'm wearing a mask that no one can see.
I'm trying to hide the pain inside me.
Yet, I'm holdin my feelings so well,
That no one can tell If I'm happy or sad...
But now I feel dead.
No pain,no emotion...No fears
What does it mean?, Are those really my feelings??

It’s just like they're no longer here? Or maybe I'm just too happy

And... forgot the pain...?
I always smile, everyday...
But not because I'm happy, But because I used to do that day-by-day.
So I wore a mask that always smiled;

To hide my feelings behind a lie. Behind all the smiles were the tears, and behind all the comfort were the fears.

Everything you think you see,  Wasn't everything there was to me.

So now my feelings are empty? am I empty?

I live my life on routine, Maybe that's the only truth...

I really don’t know what to believe.

and it feels like i'm loosing a part of me

Yet...I'm hoping that one day, one magic day

I'll find my true feelings inside,

And I'm hoping that someday

I'll be able to smile from the inside.

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